There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up. ~HG Adler
As I am scouring the internet and picking my brain trying to pick one very specific topic related to literary studies to write an 8-10 page paper I don’t want to write, I just keep thinking about quotes like the above quote. I have a bunch of quotes saved from authors, musicians, and artists that I have collected over the years. They are written in various notebooks, saved on my computer, jotted on pieces of paper then stuffed in jacket pockets and old purses. I heard most of them first on One Tree Hill, like Adler’s and somehow I haven’t forgotten them. It’s one thing to be in love with a television show and you can judge me and tell me it is all made up and the characters are exactly that – characters, not real people. But it’s something entirely different to look past the tragedy and the drama and the cast and just appreciate all the important little messages the producers and writers were sending us. Everyone needs reminders about the little things in life but why not look at the whole picture. I think it’s important to be able to step back from life and evaluate the things that might not be good for you. How do you end something that you once needed so badly to survive? Everything happens for a reason. Cliche? Maybe. But I’m realizing more and more that it’s true.
So as I sit here trying to come up with a topic to write a ten page paper that I honestly don’t care about I am saying enough is enough. I’m putting my foot down and saying I’m not writing a paper for a grade. I’m not going to fall victim to this system that says I have to do research in a specific way and I must have at least two books on my works cited page and check in points throughout the semester to make sure I’m writing correctly. If the rules were to pick any topic on anything in the world then I am writing about something off the books, my life. I get that this is all just a part of teaching me all the great things about literature and research but is this really the way? Is this the only way we can find to teach students and encourage them to write? I refuse to write about a tired old piece of literature that once had such beautiful meaning and purpose but has now been dissected so many times that there is nothing left for anyone to enjoy the work anymore.
Senior year was fun. All the stressing and trying to be perfect. Always trying to impress the teacher and out do my classmates. Not this time – this is senior year: round two. And it’s going to be a whole lot more interesting. I’m an English major because well I didn’t want to be an education major anymore. But it is also the fastest way for me to get a degree and leave college behind forever. I’m ready to write about the things I want to write about. Not the things you think I should be writing about. I hope my fellow classmates enjoy running around after the school system. I’m taking myself out of the race and starting my own trek into what I hope can be the future of education – students actually learning by doing what they love and having a purpose other than their GPA.