i’ve been thinking

If you could write a note to your younger self with only two words what would you say?

This question struck me as I scrolled Instagram this evening. What would I say? There are so many things I could say but what do they mean? How do I say it all in just two words? I write this as I lay in bed worrying about money, my sister, my life, and about a million things I can’t control. But if you were to ask I would say everything is fine. I have everything under control. And for the most part I do. But no matter how busy I keep myself and how hard I push myself to keep a smile on my face I still have those days. You know the ones I mean. The ones that wear you out and kick you down so you can’t get back up for seemingly no reason at all. Today was a good day. I did a lot of things I needed to get done, I got very nice compliments from my boss, and I watched ‘While You Were Sleeping’ with my sister. It was a good day. But for some reason as the day comes to close I feel tension in my eyes, a knot in my stomach, and anxious thoughts are racing through my brain like criminals. This is life. And this is what I wish to explain to my younger self. Hell, this is what I need to tell my present self. It’s okay to have these moments. They don’t diminish the good days. They don’t engulf you. They can but they don’t have to. Be in charge. Make decisions that matter. Share the hard things with the people around you. Talk more. Love more. Do more. Express yourself. Dream harder. Go everywhere. Spend less. Be exceptional. Cry more. Be gutsy. Speak honestly. Love yourself.

What would I tell my younger self in a note that only has two words?

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